The sun felt good in his face as he jogged on the bridge overlooking the river. He was in a really bad mood. Last night he hardly slept a wink.
After leaving his mother’s place and got home, he called Natalia to invite her to come over to his place later. He had tried her cell first but got a message saying, “the person you have called is unavailable right now.” Either she had turned her cell off or she was in in an area with no service. Annoyed, he hung up.
He didn’t bother trying to reach her again although it occurred to him that he could have called her at home and left a message if she wasn’t there. He waited until this morning to call her again. She answered and sounded sleepy. “Sorry if I woke you,” he said briskly. “I was wondering if you would like to come over to my place later–that is if you don’t already have plans.”
“No, I don’t have any plans. I’d love to come over later and hang out.” She stifled a yawn. “You’re up early. How come?”
“I’m always up before nine on the weekends. Had a late night?”
“Yes. I got in just before mid-night. Yesterday was a long day.”
“I’ll see you later.”
“What are you doing now?”
“I’m going for a jog.”
“Enjoy your jog. I’m going back to bed. I’ll see you later.”
He hung up and left the apartment. It was a beautiful day but it didn’t nothing to improve his mood. He was in a bad mood and it had to do with Natalia and the guy he saw her with yesterday. For the umpteenth time he wondered who he was and what she was doing with him. Was he the reason why she had stayed out until near midnight last night? Where were they going when he saw them? Did he take her home and then leave or did he spend the night? That thought filled him with an emotion he didn’t want to acknowledge.
In his mind he could hear his mother saying, “You’re jealous.”
He had denied it vehemently but try as he could, he couldn’t deny it to himself now. He was jealous. The thought of Natalia with another guy made him see red. What did this mean? That he had feelings for her? When did that happen? When did they change? It couldn’t have happened overnight. Was it a gradual thing? Did it have to take seeing her with that guy to discover these feelings? How was this going to affect their friendship? How could he continue being friends with her when it was obvious from his jealous reaction that he wanted to be more?
His mother had speculated that there might not be anything going on between Natalia and the guy. That it was possible that they were just friends. He wanted to believe that but they had seemed too chummy. His mother had encouraged him to just ask Natalia about the guy. That seemed simple enough. Later he was going to do just that. Hopefully, she would think that he was asking out of mere curiosity.
If it turned that his mother was right that there wasn’t anything going on between Natalia and the guy, he resolved to be honest about his feelings–let her know that they had changed. Hopefully, she wouldn’t have a problem with them taking their friendship to another level. However, if it turned out that she was involved with the guy, then, he would end his friendship with her. He hoped with all his heart that his mother was right.