When JT got back to the plantation after being away for weeks, instead of going up to the house to see Clarissa and the children, he went to see Bill, his foreman to get a report on Sadie. “Did anything happen while I was away?” he asked. “Did any of the darkies get friendly with her?”
“No, Sir. I made sure those n——kept to themselves. I warned them what would happen if they went anywhere near her.”
“Good. Good job, Bill. Send Sadie to me.”
He was glad to be back and it was because of Sadie. While he was away, he had missed her terribly. She was all he could think about. It drove him crazy thinking of her on the plantation with all those darkies watching her and wanting her. He knew that they wouldn’t get out of line for fear of getting shot and that Bill would make sure that they didn’t but still, he was anxious to get back.
He watched Sadie as she approached him. Desire coursed through his body and he was tempted to take her right then and there. “Good Morning, Sadie,” he said when she reached him.
“I’m back from my trip now. Were you being a good girl while I was away?”
“Yes, Massa. I bin good.”
“Good. I’m happy to hear that. I missed you, Sadie. Did you miss me?”
“Yes, Massa. I did.”
“Go to the cabin and wait for me there. I’ll be along shortly.”
“Yes, Massa.” She turned and headed towards the cabin while he headed towards the house.
Clarissa was on the verandah when she saw him coming towards the house. Her mouth tightened in anger. He had been to see that girl before coming to see her and the children. How could he?
As soon as he reached her, she said, “I saw you coming from the woods. You’ve been to see her, haven’t you? You’ve been away for weeks and instead of coming to the house to see your wife and your children, you went to see her.”
“For your information, I went to see Bill. I needed to have a word with him.”
“Well, I’m happy that Bill got to see you before your family,” she replied dryly.
“Clarissa, I’m really not in the mood for your tongue-lashing.”
“You’re not even acting like you’re pleased that I haven’t left you as I threatened to before you went away.”
“I knew you wouldn’t.”
“You think you know me so well, don’t you? Well, I came very, very close to leaving.”
“What made you decide to stay?”
“My duty as your wife and this is my home as much as it is yours. I’m not going to leave on account of you and that girl. And I’m not going to uproot the children and take them away from their home and their friends.”
“You made a wise decision.”
“My decision to stay doesn’t mean that I will continue to put up with your adultery, JT.”
“What exactly can you do about it, Clarissa? I’ve already told you that selling Sadie or marrying her off to one of the darkies is out of the question.”
“The Bible says, Let marriage be held in honor among all, and let the marriage bed be undefiled, for God will judge the sexually immoral and adulterous. You and that girl will not escape His judgment.”
“Don’t preach to me, Clarissa.”
“I’m your wife, JT. Proverbs 5:18-19 say, Let your fountain be blessed, and rejoice in the wife of your youth, a lovely deer, a graceful doe. Let her breasts fill you at all times with delight; be intoxicated always in her love. My breasts should be the ones satisfying you at all times with delight and it’s my love which should be intoxicating you.”
“Clarissa, I’m sorry but, my feelings for you aren’t the same as they used to be.”
“Is it because you’ve developed feelings for your black whore?” Her voice broke off in a gasp and startled cry because he had gripped her by the shoulders.
“Don’t you ever call her that again.”
Clarissa struggled against him. “Let go of me,” she demanded.
He released her. “I have to go.”
“What about the children? Aren’t you going to see them? They’ve been counting the days until you returned.”
“I will see them later.”
“You’re going to cabin now, aren’t you?”
His eyes narrowed. “How do you know about the cabin?”
“I–I followed you there the last time you went. I watched you with her. I was sick to my stomach. How could you?”
“Stay away from the cabin, Clarissa,” he muttered tightly before he strode out of the room.
Sadie was waiting for him. He closed the cabin door and quickly closed the distance between them. He reached out and pulled her against him, letting her feel how badly he wanted her. His eyes, filled with desire, eagerly drank in her features. His gaze dropped to her mouth. He saw her lips part, invitingly. Muttering under his breath, he lowered his head and kissed her.
Kissing her on the mouth was something he had never done before. Her lips tasted so sweet and were so soft that he devoured them. She responded and that drove him crazy. He released her and frantically removed his clothes. His body was on fire. When they were both naked, he pulled her against him and kissed her again before he picked her up and carried her over to the bed.
He put her down on top of the sheets and climbed on top of her. He closed his eyes as he entered her. It felt so good and so natural being inside her.
This time, Sadie didn’t have her eyes closed. Instead, she watched him. She watched the way his body glistened in the sunlight streaming through the window. His eyes were closed, his lips parted as guttural sounds rose from his throat. His face was flushed and intense pleasure marred its features. He was in the throes of passion.
Her lips still tingled from their kissing. They had never done it before. It felt nice. It stirred something deep inside her. That was why she kissed him back. Although there was some pleasure from him being inside her, she liked the kissing better. She wouldn’t mind doing it again.
He came inside her. Something else he had never done before. Usually, he emitted on the ground because he didn’t want to impregnate her. While he was away, he thought of how he could make sure that she never left him. And he decided that getting her pregnant was the answer. As a mother, she wouldn’t run away and leave her children. He would never part with her. Never. He would sooner sell Clarissa and the children than sell her.
It was at that very moment, he realized that he had fallen in love with Sadie…